August 29, 2011 § Leave a comment
It was good while it lasted. There were little bursts of happiness. I don’t love your tropical heat but I can live with it. I can live with your imperfections because I love and believe in you. Because you show me that you are trying to be better – and I have trust in your direction.
Now I need to leave. Not for a better place, but at least it is a place where I can be away from the siege, the noise, and focus on my little enterprise as a medical student. I want this coming year to be different, for myself – because I detest the idea of living for someone else. Then again, no one lives in a vacuum, and it is extremely foolish to put up such grand pretense.
Meanwhile, I am appreciating the aloneness, though I’m with one of my closest ones.